Just stopping in to say hello to everyone

Hello to all

This will be a short blog just to say Hello to all that still follow me.

I told my self at the start of this year I wanted to blog min. once a month on how things was going with us.

Well as you can see I am again running behind.I started on a blog tonight that goes all the way back to the start. I can't say at this time I will post it or if I will touch base on some of the other things I have on my mind.But

So with all that said I hope everyone is doing well.

Master JB

Blog inspired by another blogger I follow

Hello to A/all

I read a blog a day or so ago and can't get it out of my head.

The slave was talking about how hard it is for her to go from being mommy to slave to her Master and back to mommy again.

I sat here and read the blog again trying to find the words I wanted to use to comment on said blog.With little luck on just what I wanted to say without it turning in to a blog on her page I thought hell I will just comment here and share it with everyone.

The slave went on to tell that in order for her Master and her to get some "real" time alone she takes the kids to what I would call a daycare for a few hours a couple times a week. She also talks about how the kids are crying and throwing a fit cause well they are just kids and that's what kids do. She was saying that even with the kids in daycare for the few hours that once back home she still felt bad or like she was doing wrong by them.(or that is the way I took it)

Any way said slave went on to say she still felt like she was letting her Master down in someways and He reassured her she was doing fine and nothing was wrong.

OK with the jest of the blog explained.This got me to thinking and seeing just how much this slave and her Master are just the same as us.Now this came as no surprise to me but it may to some?But as I sat here and read this blog I slowed down to see that if I took and changed the names and the age of the kids a bit. this could have been a blog butterfly could have written.

We also have kids in the home and yes there are times when we just go bananas for them to leave and go to the mall or go to a friends house dam just go some where other than your rooms where we still cant make any noise.

My point is I understand the stress my slave is under cause she has to be mom to the kids and a slave to me as well as up hold the image to the kids that we are just normal vanilla parents.(even though I think they know better just not what level our dynamic is)

I read a lot more than some and way less than others. But when I see blogs where all is happy happy all the time I try and figure out if these couples have kids? how old are they? what they do for a living? not that any of the above would change my view of them or make me pass judgment on them. But more as a curiosity I would say.

I have also read blogs where the couples are way more "hard core" and those are interesting to me as well. I have a very broad taste of things when it comes to the BDSM lifestyle. But I also know at this point and time that with kids at home we cant explore all the things we would like to explore.

So we enjoy what we can when we can and keep our dynamic some what low key but well above vanilla in my opinion. As time goes on I will continue to add rules for butterfly to follow that can be worked in around a home life with children in the home.

As the kids leave home and are out on their own then we can sit down and discuss raising our dynamic to a higher level.

We have only been in the lifestyle a couple of years now and have much to learn yet.But I remember when we first started on our journey all of it was a little intimidating right at first and even now at times things can seem to kinda knock you off balance if your not watching for it.

I think that we all have a desire for this type of lifestyle or we would not be here sharing our ups and downs with each other. But one thing we must not loose focus of is everyday life has to come before our lifestyle choices whether it be kids,family,work etc. don't let it get you down.

In the world we live in all is not perfect nor will it ever be. As our relationships may never be as perfect as the next couples seems to be. But remember to just do the best you can and that everyone has ups and Downs no matter how long they have been in the lifestyle.

Master JB

Ever had one of these days? (LOL)

Hello to all

Well it has been a few weeks since I have posted so I thought today would be a good day to catch everyone up and give you some good laughs.I mean really who ever said BDSM relationships cant be funny once in awhile? So enjoy a few laughs here today.

As some of you may or may not know Me and butterfly went on vacation to see her folks who live out of state. All I can say is wow I never knew how much different folks up north live their day to day lives compared to folks down south.

We had a wonderful time even with the weather not being so great and the fact that this time of year a lot of things are not open to go and see. But we went to see her folks and just getting to see a different part of the country was a real treat all by it's self.

So right before we left to go out of state we find out the ac is out in butterfly's car and will have to go in the shop as soon as we get back.Lucky for us the weather was great going and coming.

OK we are back and she calls and gets a time to bring it in and we go drop it off and to our hide away we go.Now if you don't know about our hide away let me fill you in. We have this little Mexican food place we slip off to and have a few beers,some dam good salsa, and chips and yes they even have a smoking section.

So with the car in the shop a few beers later we are now ready to tackle the weekend which means going to see my folks then going to see her folks who live down here and then sit and wait for Monday to get here where we can have the house all to our self.

OK sorry let me back up just a bit with our folks happy that we have been and gone. All we have to do now is wait on Monday cause the boy will be in school till three the girl will be at work till whenever(I am thinking two maybe three). Which means we get the house to our self FINALLY.

Well the morning starts off really good butterfly is up drinking coffee trying so hard to catch up on all the blogs she follows I get up and have coffee and start in trying to catch up as well.

Then we get to talking about this one and that one and some of the different dynamics of how things work so well for some not so good for others but yet we all seem to have one common thing that brings us all together.(BDSM lifestyle)

Now all of this talk got me to thinking butterfly is about due for a maintenance spanking.So off we go to the bed room where I no sooner got started and would you believe in walks the girl child from work lol.(talk about timing)

Yes the girl child has got a new job and today was her first day and the manager did not have everything right in the system so she got sent home early. So needless to say everything came to a stop. Well everything but waiting on the shop to call and say the car is ready to be picked up.

So we came back into the living room to chat with the girl child and start back reading again. Well just shortly after that in comes the boy child and we chat for a bit with him.

So the call is made and the car is ready and off we go.As we are headed toward town I start thinking dam our hide out is only blocks away from where we have to pick up the car and it is happy hour(can't beat half price beer).

We enjoy a few beers and decide to head home as butterfly has to get the boy child back up to the school so he can do his band stuff. Now we pull in and the girl child is not home and my mind goes to turning thinking just how fast can you drop him off? and how long till the girl child gets back?

Well off butterfly goes to drop the boy off and yep you guessed it. Again walks in the girl child(she had been out shopping) Ok so ten mins later in walks butterfly and we both just kinda look at one another and grin.(by this time my balls are killing me)

So with the girl child in the room and unable to speak freely as we had been doing all day I got the idea I would text. ( we often text each other when we are just sitting across the room from each other to keep our stuff private)

I said girl my balls are killing me and you still need to get your spanking for this week finished.She quickly wrote back and said yes but the girl child will hear us but I can take care of your other needs. Once in the bedroom butterfly worked her magic and relief was once again. (I swear that girl could suck a baseball through a fifty foot water hose)

Now if you needed a good laugh and you read this then you should have got one or two lol.Just think this is just one day a brief look into our lives and how fast it can turn from excellent timing to oh man where did the time go?

I just want to say it is good to be Back in the great state of Texas and it is truly great to be able to sit in our home live the lifestyle we choose to live and have you all that allow us to look at brief moments of your lives through your blogs.

A special THANK YOU to all the men and women who are fighting to keep this country free. THANK YOU

Master JB

When is it time to say enough is enough?

Hello to all.

Where to start where to end and what do I put in the middle for any of this to make any dam sense? With that said I will try to explain my current mood that seems to be making me really cranky here the last few days.

We have two kids who still live at home.(enough said right lol) No really one is still in school and doing good and has a real game plan for life. Now the other one who is now out of school and now has a steady job has NO FUCKING IDEA what real life is all about.

It just makes me boil on the inside at how clueless this kid is and how she wants everyone to feel sorry for her or rather do everything for her.

I am tired of seeing butterfly stressed out over the fact this kid has no desire to make a honest effort to find her own place and stand on her own two feet.

It has got to the point to where I don't feel we are getting to live our life as we want to live it. I know we still have another year of the boy child in school and that is not a issue. But with the girl child working shift work (mostly nights) she comes in when butterfly is leaving out so she is here sleeping during the day when butterfly comes home for lunch(which use to be ''our play time'')

I know none of this makes any sense to you who read it cause you're not here.But this is being written to kinda explain to butterfly why I have been in such a cranky mood lately and to kinda let her know I understand what she is trying to say when she just can't get the words to come out right. We both want the best for the kids but we want our lives back as well.

As I see it things will not get any better till one or both of us say ok enough is enough. No more doing your laundry,no more leaving your clothes all over the living room, no more just dirty up what you will and not be willing to give up some of your free time to help clean house.

Enough is enough I take full blame that I have let things get way out of hand around here.I should have stayed on her ass from day one to keep stuff where it belongs in stead of waiting for butterfly to pop a fuse and then watch the girl child hurry up and do just enough to get butterfly to cool down. I want to say for this I apologize.

I am taking a stand as of today if she does not want to play by the rules of this house then she needs to wake up grow up and start looking for a place to rent.I see no reason that this should upset butterfly and if it does I hope she feels free to come and talk to me. So that together we can come up with a plan of action. But enough is enough I don't think the little bit of so said rent gives the girl child the right to stop doing things around here.

Master JB

I'm back from our summer time off.

Hello to A/all

As some of you who follow butterfly know it has been a really rough summer for us both.

With Summer time brings the kids being home dam near 24/7.

One which just finished high school and has no idea what direction to go.(meaning join the work force or go to collage?)

The other who has nothing to do but wait for school to start back.(this one hates to take summer break from school)

Did I mention both of them are teenagers and at each other throats dam near on a daily basis.

But to update everyone butterfly has been a good girl for the most part even with us having to slow things down do to summer.

I must say we both have done really well living a vanilla lifestyle. But truth be told I don't know if either of us could have kept our sanity much longer if it was not for school starting back in the morning.

On a funny note next summer I will have a power pole installed in the back yard so we can have power going to the travel trailer.If nothing else we can have a couple hours a week in private.

Master JB

Just Rambling

Hello to everyone

                                I know it has been a good while since I have posted. Well I have been busy and when I say busy I mean BUSY. I have butterfly's mother coming down in two weeks to visit and we have a mess around here due to the storm we had several months back.

Tree limbs piled up waiting to be burned. I am in the process of tearing the front porch off due to storm damage.Privacy fence being taken down and relocated to block off one of our very trashy neighbors behind us and to also block off who knows what kinda neighbors that just bought the lot directly behind us.

Yes you could say I am busier than a three legged cat trying to take a shit on a hot tin roof

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OK I was going to write more about my thoughts on butterfly's blog but I changed my mind.

Due to the fact that it is getting hot outside already and the clock is ticking lol.

To all that read my blog thank you for stopping in.I know I don't post a blog near as much as some do but I don't always feel I have anything to share.

                                                                                                     Master JB

To: Mother's & Mother's to be :)

I just wanted to wish each and every Mother/Mother's to be 

                                                          HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY

    

                                                                                                                    Master JB

                                                                                                              

OMG here we go again

Hello to all

                   forgive me for any miss spellings I am fucking pissed. Butterfly's step mom had the balls if you will to call her at work and tel her she found the answer to a question she ask two fucking weeks ago.

Yes i am serious as a fucking heart attak. As yall may know it came up during their ladies day out about our girl child being gay this has been known for some time now.

Well it seems that the step mom just cant let it go write it off and learn to deal with it so every chance she gets she makes a stab at butterfly about it.(this has been going on before I came into the picture.)

Anyway two weeks ago they where having lunch and sure as shit step mom brings up the topic of girl child being gay and going to burn in hell yada yada yada.

So very sarcasticly butterfly says ''Do you really think that?'' and ''Just stop right now I don't want to discuss my child and where she will spend eternity".

So she stoped and then ten mins or so later here she comes again talking about it butterfly was fucking pissed.She came home all upset crying litterly made her fucking sick. She was just now getting over all of this and then comes a phone call.

For what ever stupid fucking reason the step mom calls her at work(a place butterfly can not raise her voice or give her real feelings) and says she found out the answer to the question she ask on there last lunchin.

So butterfly not thinking about it ask what was that and OMG here we go again.

The stupid step mom finally says well I was calling to see if you wanted to go to lunch tomrrow but I guess it is a good thing I did not.

WOW what the fuck how in the world did you come up with that idea so fast? I told butterly that woman is fucking EVIL period.

Ok I am off of here so when butterfly gets home I can be calm cool and have a shoulder for her to lean on.

Thank you all who bother to read this. If you dont I would understand.

                                                                                                                             Master JB

I offer a sincere apology to A/all

Hello to everyone

I recently posted a blog about something that I had read that really bothered me.

Well some where along the way a few people took what I was trying to say as I was passing JUDGEMENT. In no shape,form or fashion was I trying to do that.

I wanted to write this to try and clear the air with some who have commented and some who posted blogs thinking I might have been referring to them.

The point of my blog was questioning why a person would offer this kinda advise?Make the kinda comments made? or tell them things that will encourage them to just turn and walk away?

Why not offer words of encouragement or some positive advise?

So with that said and hopefully explained a little better?

If my post that was titled "live it before you try to teach it" has offended anyone or made them feel I was speaking about them directly. I offer you a sincere apology my words where not meant to hurt or piss anyone off.
Master JB

LIVE IT BEFORE YOU TRY TO TEACH IT

Hello everyone
I read a blog this morning that really did not set well with me.
Let me get right to the point here. I read a blog about this slave who is what I like to call a "weekender" kinda slave. No I am not trying to belittle anyone I realize long distance relationship do exist.
(I am just making the point of if your not 24/7 then how can you advise anyone else who is?)

So when a weekender slave writes a blog more or less telling other slaves that live a 24/7 lifestyle.
That if you struggle with your submission then maybe this lifestyle is not for you?
That if you question your M/s relationship then maybe this lifestyle is not for you?
That if you have anger towards your Master then maybe this lifestyle is not for you?
That if your selfish then maybe this lifestyle is not for you?
That if you have dissatisfaction with your Master then maybe this lifestyle is not for you?

Yes I know she has watched to much Blue Collar Comedy Tour.

Then goes on to make comments like

"Then I see some who question whether they even LIKE being a slave?"

"But when the same girls blog over and over about their problems with slavery, I would think that eventually, they will either decide they ARE or ARE NOT a slave."

" Girls, MAYBE you just like the kink? MAYBE you just like it rough from time to time? MAYBE you are not a slave?"

" And, if you are not, IT’s OKAY. Just figure it out for yourselves and stop being miserable 4 days out of 7."

" It’s my thought that most of these girls would be totally bored with just a regular “Joe blow,” and a few weeks out of their collar would cure them, one way or the other."

"If you are unhappy in your relationship, or if you don’t think it’s for you, get out.
Try that vanilla man across town, you’ll know for sure then, right?"


Hmm! folks that sure puzzles me about how a "TRUE SLAVE" could tell others to just take off your collar and go fuck good Ole Joe across town and see if that cures your problem of submission.

I think maybe this weekend slave should think about what it means to be a slave vs being a vanilla wife/girl friend who gets horny and drives across town to fuck good Ole Joe when her Ole man is out of town.

Most all of the blogs I read the slaves are married to their Masters. My point being that this so called slave is telling others to just go out and throw away everything they have worked for.

Now I don't know how everyone else feels but I don't think fucking the guy or girl across town is going to strengthen your submission to your Master?

I realize we are all different and we are all at different levels in this lifestyle. What I choose to do to my slave,what I allow my slave to do or not do will at times if not always differ from other Masters. I have in the past read and implemented some ideas from other Masters in our day to day relationship as Master/slave.

I have even offered advise to others that is one of the wonderful things about being able to blog with others in this lifestyle.But when a weekend slave starts to sit and judge other slaves and belittle them when she does not even live a 24/7 M/s lifestyle but proclaims she is dam near the perfect slave.

Give me a fucking break I have yet to see a perfect Master or a perfect slave.Why? because we are all human and we all make mistakes. The important thing is we must learn from those mistakes to ever have a chance to achieve being perfect.

These are my thoughts and I stand behind them. Thanks for taking the time to read my Opinions.
Master JB

Just a quik update

Hello everyone
I know I am one of the worst ones for keeping everyone up to date.
Well as some of you know I quit my old job just over two weeks ago and it still feels like the right thing to do. Well the good news was I quit that job on a Wednesday the following Monday I got a phone call to start a new job with great pay, working Mon-Fri what else could I ask for? Well I would say for the job to have lasted more than a week lol yep I got laid off. It is a long story but my boss did say hey you got my number keep in touch and soon as work picks up he would like to have me back. Well I am planing on taking a week or so off and then if he needs someone fine if not it's on down the road I go looking.

Well butterfly is really doing good here lately we have been talking more and more and I think her biggest problem is she needs more discipline which for her equals security. I started seeing that the more I continuied giving her mantainice spankings the better she acts.

The other day she said Sir our contract is about to expire. I said well when it does we are going to be updating several little things. Well this kinda made her worry just a bit so I put her mind to rest when I told her the things changing where not major changes but she would not be getting away with some of the things she has been allowed to during this period of the contract.

Well I realize this is not a big update but I need to get back to working on butterfly's new rules list. She is excited as well as nervous about what all will change and what her punishments will be for not following the rules.
Master JB

Would it really matter if someone else said it???

Hello everyone

I am so dam sick and tired of hearing all these people BITCHING about our president.(every little thing he does, every little thing he says etc etc)

I mean really folks lets stop and think here just a min.

1. He ran for office and was elected. So what is the big deal?

I did not vote for him and I openly admit it. But he did win the election and like it or not he is my president for the next four years. Like it or not.

2. Is it because he did what ever other one before him has done? (talked a good talk knowing there is no way to keep his election promises?)

I do believe that every last one of them are crooked as a snake. I believe they would lie to your face as well as lie under oath to the people of this great country. With that said he has not done anything any other president has not done to be elected.

3. Or is it the fact that he is black?

Lets just stop and really ask ourselves would it change anything if he was a white man? Oh many will say no no it would be the same. But do you really believe that? (This is for you to decide in your mind.)

4. Could it be that he went on a talk show and made a bad choice of wording something?

Folks I did not see the show but that seems to be all I am hearing about that he made a poor choice of words and refered to special olympics. (NEWS UPDATE - he is a human and humans make mistakes)

I realize there are those of you who do not like having a black man as president of this country.

I am sorry for the fact that your so narrow minded. What will you do when we have a Chinese man running for office? or a Mexican man running for office?

Sure as I have said before I think he lied about as much as bill and Monica did. OK OK maybe not that much but my point is when you got that kinda money and your running for the highest office in this country your going to tell some lies to get there.

Folks my heart goes out to special needs kids it really does. Well before I even had kids I have always put money in the cans at the little stores or stopped in where kids where doing a car wash/bake sale for special olympics and gave money and still do.

Folks I know life is not easy with a child who has special needs. But at the same time stop walking around with a chip on your shoulder waiting on someone to come along and knock it off so you can get pissed off and start jumping up and down.

So what he made a bad choice of words. Do you think he will be the last one to ever do that? would it have made any difference if it would have been Jay Leno who said it?

My point is we all have and will again use/make a bad choice of the way we word something.

What is that elementary saying? Sticks and stones my break my bones but WORDS can never hurt me! Hmm! something to think about if I say so myself.
Master JB

Time to move on/and a special Thank You to Butterfly

Hello everyone

Well it is 11:45pm on a Wednesday night and I am sitting and thinking about 8am and the fact I am going to be unemployed.

Part of me says wait don't do it you only called in one day and said your taking a personal day.

But the other part of me say dam it man how much more of your soul can you stand to let these folks take away from you?

So with a sick feeling in my gut I plan to show up fashionably late to work in the morning walk in hand them my keys my work shirts and turn around and walk out.

THE PART BELOW WAS WRITTEN AS WAY TO PURGE MY MIND OF THE PLACE I HAVE BEEN FOR THE LAST YEAR AND A HALF (MY JOB)

For those that might be interested I will kinda fill you in on what the deal is and why it is bothering me and why it is TIME TO MOVE ON.

You see me and butterfly have been together a year and a half. I started this job two days before I got to actually meet her for the first time. I have held this job the whole time we have been together.

My point is in many of her past relationships she has had to support the man not to mention the kids have seen her do this time and time again. I would never want her or them to feel I am leaving this job just to be a dead beat.

Well today me and the boy child where outside working on the door for his room and out of the blue he ask me if I was going back to work tomorrow? I looked him right in the eyes and said son after being off four days and having time to get my thoughts straight No I am not going back.He looked back at me with a serious look on his face and said GOOD!

I thought to myself wow what a good feeling to know these kids understand what I am going through and that I have their support.

You see my days off this week was sun,mon was supposed to work tue just to turn around and be off again wen. Well yesterday I called and said I was not coming in I was taking a personal day(first time I ever used a personal day). Oh the boss was pissed he started crying well you know my father in law(the main owner) is sick and I (owners son in law)am not feeling to well myself (keep in mind he is on his day off but up at the store at 8 am?) and with you taking off that is going to run us really short handed(keep in mind it is tue. we always work with just three people on the floor)are you sure you can't come in? er um NO!

Now let me explain what I was told when I hired on. I was told you get ten sick days per year and ten personal days per year (all of these are unpaid by the way) if you happen to need to use them and you have a open day(day off) you can make up your time so you don't lose any of your hours. LMAO I have called in sick one time in a year and a half and never once was offered to let me make it up. Hmm? I smell a fucking liar( my worthless boss).

Well that is just one of the many problems at this place. The next one that chaps my ass is the way they give us our days off. The lady who makes the schedules every week has no common sense about how to do it. One week she post the schedules on a tue the next week it may be first thing Thursday morning or it may be Thursday evening late so trying to make some kinda plans with the family is next to impossible.

Oh if you think that is enough to push you to the point of telling them to fuck off just wait lol it gets better yet.See where I work they have six cashiers and they have six customer service people(that is what i am).

OK all of the cashiers rotate every other weekend off that don't sound too bad right? No not at all till you take a look at our schedules. You see the customer service people we rotate weekends alright EVERY FIFTH WEEKEND that's right you read correctly we only get every fifth weekend off that is if no one puts in a request for that weekend off which would bump you out of your turn.

Well I should say that there are five of us who have to rotate every fifth weekend. You see our manager and the top customer service guy on the schedule they also rotate weekends just like the cashiers.

Well I got to watching how things was going some time back and I said something to the other guys. They all said hey your right what gives here? I said I don't know but we all need to go to the manager at the same time and say hey man right is right and we would like to have a chance to plan things with our families too.

Well one of the guys who is a little older than me said yeah your right and I will speak up when we all go to meet with the manager. So I ask the other guys hey what do y'all think? Oh yeah we would like to have weekends off more than we do. I said OK well it takes more than just one guy with BALLS to speak up for equal treatment.Oh man they where all on board with it.

Well it seems that the top guy(managers ass kisser caught wind that he was possibly going to have to share his every other weekend off schedule if this made it to the managers Attention so next thing you know a couple of them are craw fishing on setting up a meeting with him.

Well folks I got Balls and I waited and I waited for just the right time to ask him hey what gives on this time off thing? He said whats wrong with the time? I said well nothing if your anyone of the others that get every other weekend off.

But there is five of us out of everyone that don't get every other weekend off and I feel that we should. You always talk about getting burned out/stressed out but yet you seem to have no concern about our well being.

Well his worthless reply was "well that is just how the schedule is made". I said and your the manager you can set it up where we all get some time away from this place other than one day off here or two days off during the week when our friends and family are all gone to work or school.

I could see I had him by the balls and dam if I was going to let up off of him while I finally had his ass backed up in a corner.

So I said and come to think of it I just wanted you to know I am not stupid nor have I forgot what you said when I hired in. 1. learn to cut keys 1.00 raise 2. learn to cut glass 1.00 raise 3. learn to cut and thread pipe 1.00 raise I said been doing all that for over a year now and have not seen anything after the first raise you give me. So the way I got it figured you have pasted me up twice now and I feel I am do for a annual raise on top of that.

Oh man I thought the poor bastard was about to pass out. I don't think anyone has ever had the balls to tell it like it is. (Now folks keep in mind he is my age(late 30's) not some old fart about to die)

Well he did just what I thought he would he went to trying to explain that he spends to much time in his office and not out on the floor to really see what everyone is doing and what all it is they can do or be doing to improve the store. Oh he did say that this crew of guys is one of the best crews he has ever had.(can you see him trying to blowing smoke up someones ass?)

I looked at him and utterly LOL no joke I stood there and laughed at him and said sir I strongly disagree with you on so many levels it is not even funny.Just the fact that we all come to work on our posted days to work we don't call in sick or leave early is enough to give us a annual raise if nothing else. And as far as your answer to the five of us that don't get but every fifth weekend off that sir is a lame excuse and that shows your asst. manager does not know how to make out a time sheet.

Well if you have read this far then you know I basically got the brush off of well uh I uh will uh look into it and see what we can do.

So I have decided that I am done it is time for me to move on to a job that offers some kind of benefits. Butterfly has begged me to quit for some time now. I just kept saying no not yet I think I am making head way here and if I leave who will stand up for the ones who wont or don't have the balls too?

I hope that my time there has brought these guys a little closer to becoming men and that my leaving will be a wake up call for them?

To the guys I work with I will miss each one of you. I hope that in some way I have taught you to stand up for yourselves and what is right. I wish each and everyone of you guys the very best life has to offer. I hope that one day each of you will find the courage to get away from that dark place. There is something there that utterly takes a mans soul away from him and leave him with nothing. I was very lucky to have someone as strong willed as butterfly to keep my will as strong as it stayed and for this the man could not/ did not break me or beat me down.

Butterfly I want to thank you for all the support you have given me over the last year and a half while I tried to make that little corner of the world a better place. I feel in some ways I have failed by quiting tomorrow or rather today.

I will always wonder if anything I did or said made any difference to the guys? I worry that one day they will wake up to realize the man has taken the best years of their young lives and left them with nothing and by then it will be to late to make a change.

Butterfly thank you again for being such a good slave,a wonderful mother, and a dam fine listener/advice giver to the bullshit I have crawled through in the last year.

Master JB

Working on lowering the noise level

Hello to everyone

I know it has been a few days since I have sat down to write. Well I been working around the house every time I get a day off. (well trying too) I am doing some remodeling work around the house that might explain why I have not felt like writing.

See this project kinda got put on hold for lack of funds/and just a touch of lazy to go with it lol.

Sorry let me back up just a bit and bring you up to speed. See when I bought this house it was a home that needed a handy man to finish several projects that got started but never finished. So I have been slowly getting some of the smaller projects done.

Well some of the things that where not done when butterfly came into my life was there was no bedroom door on my room the hall way just opened up into my room. Same thing with one of the bedrooms in the back of the house you had to pass through part of the bed room to get to the second bathroom and the other bedroom.

So when I ask butterfly if she wanted to move in with me she brought the kids over to take a look at my home so they could see where it was they would be moving to and kinda give them an idea of how much room they would have.

Well that all went well and we had all these ideas of adding in a wall here and a door there. Making one kids room bigger and adding on so that my other kid would have a room when she comes to stay on the weekends.

Well they got moved in and it took some time for everything to get settled in and everyone to kinda find there spot.

So we where all sitting around one night a few months after they got settled and something started the topic of the noises of our bed. Well right away I told butterfly we have got to build a wall and put in a door to close off our room so that the kids wont hear us.

So the next day I got lumber and a door and I ask the man who I bought the place from if he would help me build the wall and install the door?

Well what should have been about a three hour job it took eight hours and it seemed like anything that could go wrong on this project did.

Well after all was said and done this project kinda left me with a bad taste in my mouth and feeling a little unsure if I was ready to jump on any more big projects.

Well time kinda got away from us again and we thought summer will be here soon enough and that would give us the kinda weather we need to really get stuff done and a chance to save up a little money for the larger projects that we so need done around here.

Well the other day I was off and butterfly sent me a text saying the kids heard us again. I said do what? she said the boy child heard us last night when you where spanking me. I said well it looks like we cant wait till summer to put in his wall and door lol .So the next day off I go to the hardware store to buy lumber and a door so that we can try and muffle some more of the sounds from getting to his room.

OK the wall is built and the door is trimmed down to fit(well almost fit) but of coarse with any older home nothing is ever what it should be so I have to take the door back out side and trim it down just a bit more.

All of this will take place just as soon as it stops raining. LOL we have not had rain in two months not so much as even a grey cloud in the sky lol but you could have bet your ass pocket the day I got started on something it would rain. Lol kinda like that deal where the weather man says no rain for the next seven to ten days so you go wash your car and the next day it rains two inches lmao. Yep that is my luck

OK anyway today I am going to try and get the door trimmed down and put in and if all goes well everything will look good and work properly.

Then I can sit back pat my self on the back for a job well done and think of what to start on next. Or maybe I will think about making a nice wooden paddle out of some of the scrap lumber I have left over. Hmm!

Hope everyone is doing well I will try to do better about posting just as soon as I catch up around here lmao.
Master JB

POLY vs SWINGING whats your thoughts?

Hello to all
The other day this topic came back up between me and butterfly.Now before I go any further I want to set the stage so you see my point on this.

I have for long as I can remember felt that I am poly. I don't feel that this feeling comes from a fantasy or the mind set of being greedy or unhappy with butterfly nor do I feel that it matters what other alt. lifestyle you happen to be in.

I cant really explain the how or why I feel this way to where anyone else could understand unless your of the poly mind set sorta speak.

She has known from the start I feel I am poly and the topic has came up several times since we have been together.

Now the other day butterfly posted a blog about poly/swinging and that got me to really doing some thinking about what the real differances are between the two.

I think in some ways that people even myself have long associated the two as being one or the same. When in reality they are not the same(in my opinion).

I see poly as being able to love two or more and them love me and each other as equals not as top or bottom or side.

Now swinging that to me is a whole different world. You don't need love,compassion,caring,etc etc. You just need others who want to have sex.(in my opinion)

For a long time I think I came off as relating swinging/poly as one in some when the topics came up in our conversations.

But they aren't and the more I think back on our talks I can see clearly where I have made a real mess of the two. For those who are in or wanting a poly relationship I owe you an apology for not making myself clear to my butterfly.

Now I am honest enough to say yes I would enjoy seeing butterfly with another woman(hey folks i am human) and I realize that is a fantasy and one day maybe I will?

But as far as us living a poly lifestyle? I would like to try it and see if it could would work out for us.(butterfly knows this no secret there) I realize the amount of time and effort it takes or I say I do.

My next big step is to add a few blogger's to my page and follow their day in day out lifestyles and see what all similarities we have in common.Maybe learn more about why I feel I am poly minded?

I would like to meet some couples in real time and be able to ask questions about why/what was their attraction to the poly lifestyle? I have my own ideas why.But like I have said I want to talk to others who are in a poly relationship and concur my ideas and beliefs are true feeling not just fantasy's.

As I have expressed here I feel that a man or a woman can love more than one and be with more than one without jealously or fear of being replaced.That any two people can love a third. Is this true? Or is this just a fantasy? that only exist in the minds of others?I believe it to be true that three can love,live and be happy together.

When you really stop and think about it there are some many lifestyles that in some ways over lap one another so it is hard sometimes to see a clear image of what is what. This is why I thought this topic might be interesting to post here so that not only I get a more clear understanding but others may as well.

This topic is in no shape,form or fashion trying to say I am unhappy with butterfly.She is a wonderful slave to me and I would not dream of sending her away just to own anouther.I am who I am and with more time and learning I can convy my thoughts better to her with out making such a mess of things.

I welcome any and all to comment on this topic.
Master JB

Wow anouther one of those days.

Hello to all

I was off today from work and sadly butterfly was not. Well I got up had coffee got on blogger to see what all was new and catch up on some of the blogs I had gotten behind on.

Well I got on yahoo and sent butterfly a IM to see what she was doing and chatted with her for a bit about it being payday and going to pick up my check put it in the bank ect ect.

Butterfly told me she has a little over two days of vacation time she needs to use up before next month so she is going to come home at lunch time.(woo hoo more alone time for us)

Well she came home and knowing that my needs were level red she quickly got to work.Now after all was said and done and her ass was nice and red from the spanking she recieved(EG)we laid in the bed for a short time.

Well she said she was craving mexican food so I said ok lets go out for lunch but lets go some where different than our normal mexican food place.

So we did And had such a good time. Afterwards we walked around the mall holding hands and going in and out of some of the different stores.

Wow anouther one of those days you never want to end.
Master JB

Twisted words? or is someone feeling left out?

Hello to all

I posted a comment on Jane's blog. I offered encouragement and said be happy no matter if your in this lifestyle or some other one.

I was informed that another blogger jumped in behind me and left a really odd and nasty comment.

Where do people get off talking down to others? You know what I read sounded like an ex smoker trying to preach about how bad smoking is for your health.

If a slave is feeling worthless then they need to really sit back and take a long hard look at what's wrong in their situation.

Is it just me or did it read like someone was basically passing judgement on others who are classified as a slave?

What does that say about Masters?

Everything I have read, and trust me I read a lot about BDSM lifestyles, is a slave is a Master's most prized possession.

We all have different way of doing things so who is right who is wrong?

Does it really matter that a Masters needs should be met first? I mean if he is taking care of his slaves needs where is there a problem?

So once again in my opinion I believe jealousy has shown its ugly head.

So one really needs to take a long hard look at what needs they have that might not be getting met before so quickly condemning others for what they choose to be or not to be.

Make no mistake about it or twist my words. To me it don't matter what you call your dynamic whether it be M/s, D/s, Daddy/girl, etc.

If your needs are not being met then take a long hard look in the mirror before passing down the ten commandments of BDSM to others.
Master JB