Hello everyone
Just thought I would let those who read my blogs know. I got the call today around 4pm. I start my new job in the morning. Yep I quit my old job of a year and a half last Wednesday and starting my new job less than a week later. I told butterfly and she is happy but sad lol she sure thought the honey do list was finally going to get worked on lol. Oh well now I will get every weekend off so I will slowly get some of it done while she does her thing around here on the weekends. Have a good day to all I will let everyone know how the first day goes.
Master JB
Monday, March 23, 2009
Friday, March 20, 2009
Would it really matter if someone else said it???
Hello everyone
I am so dam sick and tired of hearing all these people BITCHING about our president.(every little thing he does, every little thing he says etc etc)
I mean really folks lets stop and think here just a min.
1. He ran for office and was elected. So what is the big deal?
I did not vote for him and I openly admit it. But he did win the election and like it or not he is my president for the next four years. Like it or not.
2. Is it because he did what ever other one before him has done? (talked a good talk knowing there is no way to keep his election promises?)
I do believe that every last one of them are crooked as a snake. I believe they would lie to your face as well as lie under oath to the people of this great country. With that said he has not done anything any other president has not done to be elected.
3. Or is it the fact that he is black?
Lets just stop and really ask ourselves would it change anything if he was a white man? Oh many will say no no it would be the same. But do you really believe that? (This is for you to decide in your mind.)
4. Could it be that he went on a talk show and made a bad choice of wording something?
Folks I did not see the show but that seems to be all I am hearing about that he made a poor choice of words and refered to special olympics. (NEWS UPDATE - he is a human and humans make mistakes)
I realize there are those of you who do not like having a black man as president of this country.
I am sorry for the fact that your so narrow minded. What will you do when we have a Chinese man running for office? or a Mexican man running for office?
Sure as I have said before I think he lied about as much as bill and Monica did. OK OK maybe not that much but my point is when you got that kinda money and your running for the highest office in this country your going to tell some lies to get there.
Folks my heart goes out to special needs kids it really does. Well before I even had kids I have always put money in the cans at the little stores or stopped in where kids where doing a car wash/bake sale for special olympics and gave money and still do.
Folks I know life is not easy with a child who has special needs. But at the same time stop walking around with a chip on your shoulder waiting on someone to come along and knock it off so you can get pissed off and start jumping up and down.
So what he made a bad choice of words. Do you think he will be the last one to ever do that? would it have made any difference if it would have been Jay Leno who said it?
My point is we all have and will again use/make a bad choice of the way we word something.
What is that elementary saying? Sticks and stones my break my bones but WORDS can never hurt me! Hmm! something to think about if I say so myself.
Master JB
I am so dam sick and tired of hearing all these people BITCHING about our president.(every little thing he does, every little thing he says etc etc)
I mean really folks lets stop and think here just a min.
1. He ran for office and was elected. So what is the big deal?
I did not vote for him and I openly admit it. But he did win the election and like it or not he is my president for the next four years. Like it or not.
2. Is it because he did what ever other one before him has done? (talked a good talk knowing there is no way to keep his election promises?)
I do believe that every last one of them are crooked as a snake. I believe they would lie to your face as well as lie under oath to the people of this great country. With that said he has not done anything any other president has not done to be elected.
3. Or is it the fact that he is black?
Lets just stop and really ask ourselves would it change anything if he was a white man? Oh many will say no no it would be the same. But do you really believe that? (This is for you to decide in your mind.)
4. Could it be that he went on a talk show and made a bad choice of wording something?
Folks I did not see the show but that seems to be all I am hearing about that he made a poor choice of words and refered to special olympics. (NEWS UPDATE - he is a human and humans make mistakes)
I realize there are those of you who do not like having a black man as president of this country.
I am sorry for the fact that your so narrow minded. What will you do when we have a Chinese man running for office? or a Mexican man running for office?
Sure as I have said before I think he lied about as much as bill and Monica did. OK OK maybe not that much but my point is when you got that kinda money and your running for the highest office in this country your going to tell some lies to get there.
Folks my heart goes out to special needs kids it really does. Well before I even had kids I have always put money in the cans at the little stores or stopped in where kids where doing a car wash/bake sale for special olympics and gave money and still do.
Folks I know life is not easy with a child who has special needs. But at the same time stop walking around with a chip on your shoulder waiting on someone to come along and knock it off so you can get pissed off and start jumping up and down.
So what he made a bad choice of words. Do you think he will be the last one to ever do that? would it have made any difference if it would have been Jay Leno who said it?
My point is we all have and will again use/make a bad choice of the way we word something.
What is that elementary saying? Sticks and stones my break my bones but WORDS can never hurt me! Hmm! something to think about if I say so myself.
Master JB
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
Time to move on/and a special Thank You to Butterfly
Hello everyone
Well it is 11:45pm on a Wednesday night and I am sitting and thinking about 8am and the fact I am going to be unemployed.
Part of me says wait don't do it you only called in one day and said your taking a personal day.
But the other part of me say dam it man how much more of your soul can you stand to let these folks take away from you?
So with a sick feeling in my gut I plan to show up fashionably late to work in the morning walk in hand them my keys my work shirts and turn around and walk out.
THE PART BELOW WAS WRITTEN AS WAY TO PURGE MY MIND OF THE PLACE I HAVE BEEN FOR THE LAST YEAR AND A HALF (MY JOB)
For those that might be interested I will kinda fill you in on what the deal is and why it is bothering me and why it is TIME TO MOVE ON.
You see me and butterfly have been together a year and a half. I started this job two days before I got to actually meet her for the first time. I have held this job the whole time we have been together.
My point is in many of her past relationships she has had to support the man not to mention the kids have seen her do this time and time again. I would never want her or them to feel I am leaving this job just to be a dead beat.
Well today me and the boy child where outside working on the door for his room and out of the blue he ask me if I was going back to work tomorrow? I looked him right in the eyes and said son after being off four days and having time to get my thoughts straight No I am not going back.He looked back at me with a serious look on his face and said GOOD!
I thought to myself wow what a good feeling to know these kids understand what I am going through and that I have their support.
You see my days off this week was sun,mon was supposed to work tue just to turn around and be off again wen. Well yesterday I called and said I was not coming in I was taking a personal day(first time I ever used a personal day). Oh the boss was pissed he started crying well you know my father in law(the main owner) is sick and I (owners son in law)am not feeling to well myself (keep in mind he is on his day off but up at the store at 8 am?) and with you taking off that is going to run us really short handed(keep in mind it is tue. we always work with just three people on the floor)are you sure you can't come in? er um NO!
Now let me explain what I was told when I hired on. I was told you get ten sick days per year and ten personal days per year (all of these are unpaid by the way) if you happen to need to use them and you have a open day(day off) you can make up your time so you don't lose any of your hours. LMAO I have called in sick one time in a year and a half and never once was offered to let me make it up. Hmm? I smell a fucking liar( my worthless boss).
Well that is just one of the many problems at this place. The next one that chaps my ass is the way they give us our days off. The lady who makes the schedules every week has no common sense about how to do it. One week she post the schedules on a tue the next week it may be first thing Thursday morning or it may be Thursday evening late so trying to make some kinda plans with the family is next to impossible.
Oh if you think that is enough to push you to the point of telling them to fuck off just wait lol it gets better yet.See where I work they have six cashiers and they have six customer service people(that is what i am).
OK all of the cashiers rotate every other weekend off that don't sound too bad right? No not at all till you take a look at our schedules. You see the customer service people we rotate weekends alright EVERY FIFTH WEEKEND that's right you read correctly we only get every fifth weekend off that is if no one puts in a request for that weekend off which would bump you out of your turn.
Well I should say that there are five of us who have to rotate every fifth weekend. You see our manager and the top customer service guy on the schedule they also rotate weekends just like the cashiers.
Well I got to watching how things was going some time back and I said something to the other guys. They all said hey your right what gives here? I said I don't know but we all need to go to the manager at the same time and say hey man right is right and we would like to have a chance to plan things with our families too.
Well one of the guys who is a little older than me said yeah your right and I will speak up when we all go to meet with the manager. So I ask the other guys hey what do y'all think? Oh yeah we would like to have weekends off more than we do. I said OK well it takes more than just one guy with BALLS to speak up for equal treatment.Oh man they where all on board with it.
Well it seems that the top guy(managers ass kisser caught wind that he was possibly going to have to share his every other weekend off schedule if this made it to the managers Attention so next thing you know a couple of them are craw fishing on setting up a meeting with him.
Well folks I got Balls and I waited and I waited for just the right time to ask him hey what gives on this time off thing? He said whats wrong with the time? I said well nothing if your anyone of the others that get every other weekend off.
But there is five of us out of everyone that don't get every other weekend off and I feel that we should. You always talk about getting burned out/stressed out but yet you seem to have no concern about our well being.
Well his worthless reply was "well that is just how the schedule is made". I said and your the manager you can set it up where we all get some time away from this place other than one day off here or two days off during the week when our friends and family are all gone to work or school.
I could see I had him by the balls and dam if I was going to let up off of him while I finally had his ass backed up in a corner.
So I said and come to think of it I just wanted you to know I am not stupid nor have I forgot what you said when I hired in. 1. learn to cut keys 1.00 raise 2. learn to cut glass 1.00 raise 3. learn to cut and thread pipe 1.00 raise I said been doing all that for over a year now and have not seen anything after the first raise you give me. So the way I got it figured you have pasted me up twice now and I feel I am do for a annual raise on top of that.
Oh man I thought the poor bastard was about to pass out. I don't think anyone has ever had the balls to tell it like it is. (Now folks keep in mind he is my age(late 30's) not some old fart about to die)
Well he did just what I thought he would he went to trying to explain that he spends to much time in his office and not out on the floor to really see what everyone is doing and what all it is they can do or be doing to improve the store. Oh he did say that this crew of guys is one of the best crews he has ever had.(can you see him trying to blowing smoke up someones ass?)
I looked at him and utterly LOL no joke I stood there and laughed at him and said sir I strongly disagree with you on so many levels it is not even funny.Just the fact that we all come to work on our posted days to work we don't call in sick or leave early is enough to give us a annual raise if nothing else. And as far as your answer to the five of us that don't get but every fifth weekend off that sir is a lame excuse and that shows your asst. manager does not know how to make out a time sheet.
Well if you have read this far then you know I basically got the brush off of well uh I uh will uh look into it and see what we can do.
So I have decided that I am done it is time for me to move on to a job that offers some kind of benefits. Butterfly has begged me to quit for some time now. I just kept saying no not yet I think I am making head way here and if I leave who will stand up for the ones who wont or don't have the balls too?
I hope that my time there has brought these guys a little closer to becoming men and that my leaving will be a wake up call for them?
To the guys I work with I will miss each one of you. I hope that in some way I have taught you to stand up for yourselves and what is right. I wish each and everyone of you guys the very best life has to offer. I hope that one day each of you will find the courage to get away from that dark place. There is something there that utterly takes a mans soul away from him and leave him with nothing. I was very lucky to have someone as strong willed as butterfly to keep my will as strong as it stayed and for this the man could not/ did not break me or beat me down.
Butterfly I want to thank you for all the support you have given me over the last year and a half while I tried to make that little corner of the world a better place. I feel in some ways I have failed by quiting tomorrow or rather today.
I will always wonder if anything I did or said made any difference to the guys? I worry that one day they will wake up to realize the man has taken the best years of their young lives and left them with nothing and by then it will be to late to make a change.
Butterfly thank you again for being such a good slave,a wonderful mother, and a dam fine listener/advice giver to the bullshit I have crawled through in the last year.
Master JB
Well it is 11:45pm on a Wednesday night and I am sitting and thinking about 8am and the fact I am going to be unemployed.
Part of me says wait don't do it you only called in one day and said your taking a personal day.
But the other part of me say dam it man how much more of your soul can you stand to let these folks take away from you?
So with a sick feeling in my gut I plan to show up fashionably late to work in the morning walk in hand them my keys my work shirts and turn around and walk out.
THE PART BELOW WAS WRITTEN AS WAY TO PURGE MY MIND OF THE PLACE I HAVE BEEN FOR THE LAST YEAR AND A HALF (MY JOB)
For those that might be interested I will kinda fill you in on what the deal is and why it is bothering me and why it is TIME TO MOVE ON.
You see me and butterfly have been together a year and a half. I started this job two days before I got to actually meet her for the first time. I have held this job the whole time we have been together.
My point is in many of her past relationships she has had to support the man not to mention the kids have seen her do this time and time again. I would never want her or them to feel I am leaving this job just to be a dead beat.
Well today me and the boy child where outside working on the door for his room and out of the blue he ask me if I was going back to work tomorrow? I looked him right in the eyes and said son after being off four days and having time to get my thoughts straight No I am not going back.He looked back at me with a serious look on his face and said GOOD!
I thought to myself wow what a good feeling to know these kids understand what I am going through and that I have their support.
You see my days off this week was sun,mon was supposed to work tue just to turn around and be off again wen. Well yesterday I called and said I was not coming in I was taking a personal day(first time I ever used a personal day). Oh the boss was pissed he started crying well you know my father in law(the main owner) is sick and I (owners son in law)am not feeling to well myself (keep in mind he is on his day off but up at the store at 8 am?) and with you taking off that is going to run us really short handed(keep in mind it is tue. we always work with just three people on the floor)are you sure you can't come in? er um NO!
Now let me explain what I was told when I hired on. I was told you get ten sick days per year and ten personal days per year (all of these are unpaid by the way) if you happen to need to use them and you have a open day(day off) you can make up your time so you don't lose any of your hours. LMAO I have called in sick one time in a year and a half and never once was offered to let me make it up. Hmm? I smell a fucking liar( my worthless boss).
Well that is just one of the many problems at this place. The next one that chaps my ass is the way they give us our days off. The lady who makes the schedules every week has no common sense about how to do it. One week she post the schedules on a tue the next week it may be first thing Thursday morning or it may be Thursday evening late so trying to make some kinda plans with the family is next to impossible.
Oh if you think that is enough to push you to the point of telling them to fuck off just wait lol it gets better yet.See where I work they have six cashiers and they have six customer service people(that is what i am).
OK all of the cashiers rotate every other weekend off that don't sound too bad right? No not at all till you take a look at our schedules. You see the customer service people we rotate weekends alright EVERY FIFTH WEEKEND that's right you read correctly we only get every fifth weekend off that is if no one puts in a request for that weekend off which would bump you out of your turn.
Well I should say that there are five of us who have to rotate every fifth weekend. You see our manager and the top customer service guy on the schedule they also rotate weekends just like the cashiers.
Well I got to watching how things was going some time back and I said something to the other guys. They all said hey your right what gives here? I said I don't know but we all need to go to the manager at the same time and say hey man right is right and we would like to have a chance to plan things with our families too.
Well one of the guys who is a little older than me said yeah your right and I will speak up when we all go to meet with the manager. So I ask the other guys hey what do y'all think? Oh yeah we would like to have weekends off more than we do. I said OK well it takes more than just one guy with BALLS to speak up for equal treatment.Oh man they where all on board with it.
Well it seems that the top guy(managers ass kisser caught wind that he was possibly going to have to share his every other weekend off schedule if this made it to the managers Attention so next thing you know a couple of them are craw fishing on setting up a meeting with him.
Well folks I got Balls and I waited and I waited for just the right time to ask him hey what gives on this time off thing? He said whats wrong with the time? I said well nothing if your anyone of the others that get every other weekend off.
But there is five of us out of everyone that don't get every other weekend off and I feel that we should. You always talk about getting burned out/stressed out but yet you seem to have no concern about our well being.
Well his worthless reply was "well that is just how the schedule is made". I said and your the manager you can set it up where we all get some time away from this place other than one day off here or two days off during the week when our friends and family are all gone to work or school.
I could see I had him by the balls and dam if I was going to let up off of him while I finally had his ass backed up in a corner.
So I said and come to think of it I just wanted you to know I am not stupid nor have I forgot what you said when I hired in. 1. learn to cut keys 1.00 raise 2. learn to cut glass 1.00 raise 3. learn to cut and thread pipe 1.00 raise I said been doing all that for over a year now and have not seen anything after the first raise you give me. So the way I got it figured you have pasted me up twice now and I feel I am do for a annual raise on top of that.
Oh man I thought the poor bastard was about to pass out. I don't think anyone has ever had the balls to tell it like it is. (Now folks keep in mind he is my age(late 30's) not some old fart about to die)
Well he did just what I thought he would he went to trying to explain that he spends to much time in his office and not out on the floor to really see what everyone is doing and what all it is they can do or be doing to improve the store. Oh he did say that this crew of guys is one of the best crews he has ever had.(can you see him trying to blowing smoke up someones ass?)
I looked at him and utterly LOL no joke I stood there and laughed at him and said sir I strongly disagree with you on so many levels it is not even funny.Just the fact that we all come to work on our posted days to work we don't call in sick or leave early is enough to give us a annual raise if nothing else. And as far as your answer to the five of us that don't get but every fifth weekend off that sir is a lame excuse and that shows your asst. manager does not know how to make out a time sheet.
Well if you have read this far then you know I basically got the brush off of well uh I uh will uh look into it and see what we can do.
So I have decided that I am done it is time for me to move on to a job that offers some kind of benefits. Butterfly has begged me to quit for some time now. I just kept saying no not yet I think I am making head way here and if I leave who will stand up for the ones who wont or don't have the balls too?
I hope that my time there has brought these guys a little closer to becoming men and that my leaving will be a wake up call for them?
To the guys I work with I will miss each one of you. I hope that in some way I have taught you to stand up for yourselves and what is right. I wish each and everyone of you guys the very best life has to offer. I hope that one day each of you will find the courage to get away from that dark place. There is something there that utterly takes a mans soul away from him and leave him with nothing. I was very lucky to have someone as strong willed as butterfly to keep my will as strong as it stayed and for this the man could not/ did not break me or beat me down.
Butterfly I want to thank you for all the support you have given me over the last year and a half while I tried to make that little corner of the world a better place. I feel in some ways I have failed by quiting tomorrow or rather today.
I will always wonder if anything I did or said made any difference to the guys? I worry that one day they will wake up to realize the man has taken the best years of their young lives and left them with nothing and by then it will be to late to make a change.
Butterfly thank you again for being such a good slave,a wonderful mother, and a dam fine listener/advice giver to the bullshit I have crawled through in the last year.
Master JB
Working on lowering the noise level
Hello to everyone
I know it has been a few days since I have sat down to write. Well I been working around the house every time I get a day off. (well trying too) I am doing some remodeling work around the house that might explain why I have not felt like writing.
See this project kinda got put on hold for lack of funds/and just a touch of lazy to go with it lol.
Sorry let me back up just a bit and bring you up to speed. See when I bought this house it was a home that needed a handy man to finish several projects that got started but never finished. So I have been slowly getting some of the smaller projects done.
Well some of the things that where not done when butterfly came into my life was there was no bedroom door on my room the hall way just opened up into my room. Same thing with one of the bedrooms in the back of the house you had to pass through part of the bed room to get to the second bathroom and the other bedroom.
So when I ask butterfly if she wanted to move in with me she brought the kids over to take a look at my home so they could see where it was they would be moving to and kinda give them an idea of how much room they would have.
Well that all went well and we had all these ideas of adding in a wall here and a door there. Making one kids room bigger and adding on so that my other kid would have a room when she comes to stay on the weekends.
Well they got moved in and it took some time for everything to get settled in and everyone to kinda find there spot.
So we where all sitting around one night a few months after they got settled and something started the topic of the noises of our bed. Well right away I told butterfly we have got to build a wall and put in a door to close off our room so that the kids wont hear us.
So the next day I got lumber and a door and I ask the man who I bought the place from if he would help me build the wall and install the door?
Well what should have been about a three hour job it took eight hours and it seemed like anything that could go wrong on this project did.
Well after all was said and done this project kinda left me with a bad taste in my mouth and feeling a little unsure if I was ready to jump on any more big projects.
Well time kinda got away from us again and we thought summer will be here soon enough and that would give us the kinda weather we need to really get stuff done and a chance to save up a little money for the larger projects that we so need done around here.
Well the other day I was off and butterfly sent me a text saying the kids heard us again. I said do what? she said the boy child heard us last night when you where spanking me. I said well it looks like we cant wait till summer to put in his wall and door lol .So the next day off I go to the hardware store to buy lumber and a door so that we can try and muffle some more of the sounds from getting to his room.
OK the wall is built and the door is trimmed down to fit(well almost fit) but of coarse with any older home nothing is ever what it should be so I have to take the door back out side and trim it down just a bit more.
All of this will take place just as soon as it stops raining. LOL we have not had rain in two months not so much as even a grey cloud in the sky lol but you could have bet your ass pocket the day I got started on something it would rain. Lol kinda like that deal where the weather man says no rain for the next seven to ten days so you go wash your car and the next day it rains two inches lmao. Yep that is my luck
OK anyway today I am going to try and get the door trimmed down and put in and if all goes well everything will look good and work properly.
Then I can sit back pat my self on the back for a job well done and think of what to start on next. Or maybe I will think about making a nice wooden paddle out of some of the scrap lumber I have left over. Hmm!
Hope everyone is doing well I will try to do better about posting just as soon as I catch up around here lmao.
Master JB
I know it has been a few days since I have sat down to write. Well I been working around the house every time I get a day off. (well trying too) I am doing some remodeling work around the house that might explain why I have not felt like writing.
See this project kinda got put on hold for lack of funds/and just a touch of lazy to go with it lol.
Sorry let me back up just a bit and bring you up to speed. See when I bought this house it was a home that needed a handy man to finish several projects that got started but never finished. So I have been slowly getting some of the smaller projects done.
Well some of the things that where not done when butterfly came into my life was there was no bedroom door on my room the hall way just opened up into my room. Same thing with one of the bedrooms in the back of the house you had to pass through part of the bed room to get to the second bathroom and the other bedroom.
So when I ask butterfly if she wanted to move in with me she brought the kids over to take a look at my home so they could see where it was they would be moving to and kinda give them an idea of how much room they would have.
Well that all went well and we had all these ideas of adding in a wall here and a door there. Making one kids room bigger and adding on so that my other kid would have a room when she comes to stay on the weekends.
Well they got moved in and it took some time for everything to get settled in and everyone to kinda find there spot.
So we where all sitting around one night a few months after they got settled and something started the topic of the noises of our bed. Well right away I told butterfly we have got to build a wall and put in a door to close off our room so that the kids wont hear us.
So the next day I got lumber and a door and I ask the man who I bought the place from if he would help me build the wall and install the door?
Well what should have been about a three hour job it took eight hours and it seemed like anything that could go wrong on this project did.
Well after all was said and done this project kinda left me with a bad taste in my mouth and feeling a little unsure if I was ready to jump on any more big projects.
Well time kinda got away from us again and we thought summer will be here soon enough and that would give us the kinda weather we need to really get stuff done and a chance to save up a little money for the larger projects that we so need done around here.
Well the other day I was off and butterfly sent me a text saying the kids heard us again. I said do what? she said the boy child heard us last night when you where spanking me. I said well it looks like we cant wait till summer to put in his wall and door lol .So the next day off I go to the hardware store to buy lumber and a door so that we can try and muffle some more of the sounds from getting to his room.
OK the wall is built and the door is trimmed down to fit(well almost fit) but of coarse with any older home nothing is ever what it should be so I have to take the door back out side and trim it down just a bit more.
All of this will take place just as soon as it stops raining. LOL we have not had rain in two months not so much as even a grey cloud in the sky lol but you could have bet your ass pocket the day I got started on something it would rain. Lol kinda like that deal where the weather man says no rain for the next seven to ten days so you go wash your car and the next day it rains two inches lmao. Yep that is my luck
OK anyway today I am going to try and get the door trimmed down and put in and if all goes well everything will look good and work properly.
Then I can sit back pat my self on the back for a job well done and think of what to start on next. Or maybe I will think about making a nice wooden paddle out of some of the scrap lumber I have left over. Hmm!
Hope everyone is doing well I will try to do better about posting just as soon as I catch up around here lmao.
Master JB
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
POLY vs SWINGING whats your thoughts?
Hello to all
The other day this topic came back up between me and butterfly.Now before I go any further I want to set the stage so you see my point on this.
I have for long as I can remember felt that I am poly. I don't feel that this feeling comes from a fantasy or the mind set of being greedy or unhappy with butterfly nor do I feel that it matters what other alt. lifestyle you happen to be in.
I cant really explain the how or why I feel this way to where anyone else could understand unless your of the poly mind set sorta speak.
She has known from the start I feel I am poly and the topic has came up several times since we have been together.
Now the other day butterfly posted a blog about poly/swinging and that got me to really doing some thinking about what the real differances are between the two.
I think in some ways that people even myself have long associated the two as being one or the same. When in reality they are not the same(in my opinion).
I see poly as being able to love two or more and them love me and each other as equals not as top or bottom or side.
Now swinging that to me is a whole different world. You don't need love,compassion,caring,etc etc. You just need others who want to have sex.(in my opinion)
For a long time I think I came off as relating swinging/poly as one in some when the topics came up in our conversations.
But they aren't and the more I think back on our talks I can see clearly where I have made a real mess of the two. For those who are in or wanting a poly relationship I owe you an apology for not making myself clear to my butterfly.
Now I am honest enough to say yes I would enjoy seeing butterfly with another woman(hey folks i am human) and I realize that is a fantasy and one day maybe I will?
But as far as us living a poly lifestyle? I would like to try it and see if it could would work out for us.(butterfly knows this no secret there) I realize the amount of time and effort it takes or I say I do.
My next big step is to add a few blogger's to my page and follow their day in day out lifestyles and see what all similarities we have in common.Maybe learn more about why I feel I am poly minded?
I would like to meet some couples in real time and be able to ask questions about why/what was their attraction to the poly lifestyle? I have my own ideas why.But like I have said I want to talk to others who are in a poly relationship and concur my ideas and beliefs are true feeling not just fantasy's.
As I have expressed here I feel that a man or a woman can love more than one and be with more than one without jealously or fear of being replaced.That any two people can love a third. Is this true? Or is this just a fantasy? that only exist in the minds of others?I believe it to be true that three can love,live and be happy together.
When you really stop and think about it there are some many lifestyles that in some ways over lap one another so it is hard sometimes to see a clear image of what is what. This is why I thought this topic might be interesting to post here so that not only I get a more clear understanding but others may as well.
This topic is in no shape,form or fashion trying to say I am unhappy with butterfly.She is a wonderful slave to me and I would not dream of sending her away just to own anouther.I am who I am and with more time and learning I can convy my thoughts better to her with out making such a mess of things.
I welcome any and all to comment on this topic.
Master JB
The other day this topic came back up between me and butterfly.Now before I go any further I want to set the stage so you see my point on this.
I have for long as I can remember felt that I am poly. I don't feel that this feeling comes from a fantasy or the mind set of being greedy or unhappy with butterfly nor do I feel that it matters what other alt. lifestyle you happen to be in.
I cant really explain the how or why I feel this way to where anyone else could understand unless your of the poly mind set sorta speak.
She has known from the start I feel I am poly and the topic has came up several times since we have been together.
Now the other day butterfly posted a blog about poly/swinging and that got me to really doing some thinking about what the real differances are between the two.
I think in some ways that people even myself have long associated the two as being one or the same. When in reality they are not the same(in my opinion).
I see poly as being able to love two or more and them love me and each other as equals not as top or bottom or side.
Now swinging that to me is a whole different world. You don't need love,compassion,caring,etc etc. You just need others who want to have sex.(in my opinion)
For a long time I think I came off as relating swinging/poly as one in some when the topics came up in our conversations.
But they aren't and the more I think back on our talks I can see clearly where I have made a real mess of the two. For those who are in or wanting a poly relationship I owe you an apology for not making myself clear to my butterfly.
Now I am honest enough to say yes I would enjoy seeing butterfly with another woman(hey folks i am human) and I realize that is a fantasy and one day maybe I will?
But as far as us living a poly lifestyle? I would like to try it and see if it could would work out for us.(butterfly knows this no secret there) I realize the amount of time and effort it takes or I say I do.
My next big step is to add a few blogger's to my page and follow their day in day out lifestyles and see what all similarities we have in common.Maybe learn more about why I feel I am poly minded?
I would like to meet some couples in real time and be able to ask questions about why/what was their attraction to the poly lifestyle? I have my own ideas why.But like I have said I want to talk to others who are in a poly relationship and concur my ideas and beliefs are true feeling not just fantasy's.
As I have expressed here I feel that a man or a woman can love more than one and be with more than one without jealously or fear of being replaced.That any two people can love a third. Is this true? Or is this just a fantasy? that only exist in the minds of others?I believe it to be true that three can love,live and be happy together.
When you really stop and think about it there are some many lifestyles that in some ways over lap one another so it is hard sometimes to see a clear image of what is what. This is why I thought this topic might be interesting to post here so that not only I get a more clear understanding but others may as well.
This topic is in no shape,form or fashion trying to say I am unhappy with butterfly.She is a wonderful slave to me and I would not dream of sending her away just to own anouther.I am who I am and with more time and learning I can convy my thoughts better to her with out making such a mess of things.
I welcome any and all to comment on this topic.
Master JB
Friday, February 20, 2009
Wow anouther one of those days.
Hello to all
I was off today from work and sadly butterfly was not. Well I got up had coffee got on blogger to see what all was new and catch up on some of the blogs I had gotten behind on.
Well I got on yahoo and sent butterfly a IM to see what she was doing and chatted with her for a bit about it being payday and going to pick up my check put it in the bank ect ect.
Butterfly told me she has a little over two days of vacation time she needs to use up before next month so she is going to come home at lunch time.(woo hoo more alone time for us)
Well she came home and knowing that my needs were level red she quickly got to work.Now after all was said and done and her ass was nice and red from the spanking she recieved(EG)we laid in the bed for a short time.
Well she said she was craving mexican food so I said ok lets go out for lunch but lets go some where different than our normal mexican food place.
So we did And had such a good time. Afterwards we walked around the mall holding hands and going in and out of some of the different stores.
Wow anouther one of those days you never want to end.
Master JB
I was off today from work and sadly butterfly was not. Well I got up had coffee got on blogger to see what all was new and catch up on some of the blogs I had gotten behind on.
Well I got on yahoo and sent butterfly a IM to see what she was doing and chatted with her for a bit about it being payday and going to pick up my check put it in the bank ect ect.
Butterfly told me she has a little over two days of vacation time she needs to use up before next month so she is going to come home at lunch time.(woo hoo more alone time for us)
Well she came home and knowing that my needs were level red she quickly got to work.Now after all was said and done and her ass was nice and red from the spanking she recieved(EG)we laid in the bed for a short time.
Well she said she was craving mexican food so I said ok lets go out for lunch but lets go some where different than our normal mexican food place.
So we did And had such a good time. Afterwards we walked around the mall holding hands and going in and out of some of the different stores.
Wow anouther one of those days you never want to end.
Master JB
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
Time or the lack of I should say
Hello to everyone
I have been reading several blogs the last few days. Most of which in some form or another all refer to time or the lack of I should say.
Time is a very valuable thing when you really stop and think about it.
I wish I could spend more of my time with my slave butterfly during the week.But due to our schedules we do good to see each other three hours a day during the week.
So when she had told me about a week or so ago she was going to be getting a three day weekend.I ask why? she said due to presidents day and the kids would be in school(you should have seen the grin on my face)
So the next day I filled out a request for my days off to be sun,Mon,Tue.This was on like a Tuesday and the schedule does not post till late Thursday.(another reason I hate this shit job).
Well Thursday finally got here and woo hoo I was off on the days I had ask for.(rare)
Well Sunday was good we did a little running around went and seen my folks which was good.We got to see the grand baby.(yes we are grand parents lol)
Now Monday was a real treat . Butterfly had been searching online for an adult shop that caters more to people in our lifestyle. Well hard to believe but she found one in Houston some 50 plus miles from us.Now there was no way I was going to tell her we can't go lol. I like to go and see what new fetish stuff I can find. (evil grin)
Well before we could get home we needed to make a stops wal-mart,the water company,the liquor store.
We get home supper has been cooking all day in the crock pot so we sit down and have supper with the kids.Butterfly looks over at me and says do you want to go to our room? uh em Hell yeah
Well we put in a dvd on the new dvd player I just bought and got down to trying out some of the new toys we bought.(she can share the rest on her blog if she wants too)
Today butterfly came home at lunch and we got to spend a couple more hours together before the kids got home from school.
All in all this has been a good three days off. Sad to say I have to head back to work in the morning.
Butterfly thank you for such a wonderful two and a half days. It was so much fun doing things out of our normal routine we need to start doing that more often.
Love you
Master JB
I have been reading several blogs the last few days. Most of which in some form or another all refer to time or the lack of I should say.
Time is a very valuable thing when you really stop and think about it.
I wish I could spend more of my time with my slave butterfly during the week.But due to our schedules we do good to see each other three hours a day during the week.
So when she had told me about a week or so ago she was going to be getting a three day weekend.I ask why? she said due to presidents day and the kids would be in school(you should have seen the grin on my face)
So the next day I filled out a request for my days off to be sun,Mon,Tue.This was on like a Tuesday and the schedule does not post till late Thursday.(another reason I hate this shit job).
Well Thursday finally got here and woo hoo I was off on the days I had ask for.(rare)
Well Sunday was good we did a little running around went and seen my folks which was good.We got to see the grand baby.(yes we are grand parents lol)
Now Monday was a real treat . Butterfly had been searching online for an adult shop that caters more to people in our lifestyle. Well hard to believe but she found one in Houston some 50 plus miles from us.Now there was no way I was going to tell her we can't go lol. I like to go and see what new fetish stuff I can find. (evil grin)
Well before we could get home we needed to make a stops wal-mart,the water company,the liquor store.
We get home supper has been cooking all day in the crock pot so we sit down and have supper with the kids.Butterfly looks over at me and says do you want to go to our room? uh em Hell yeah
Well we put in a dvd on the new dvd player I just bought and got down to trying out some of the new toys we bought.(she can share the rest on her blog if she wants too)
Today butterfly came home at lunch and we got to spend a couple more hours together before the kids got home from school.
All in all this has been a good three days off. Sad to say I have to head back to work in the morning.
Butterfly thank you for such a wonderful two and a half days. It was so much fun doing things out of our normal routine we need to start doing that more often.
Love you
Master JB
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